It felt really good to write all of that down yesterday. I was really nervous about posting it because I didn't know what people's reactions would be or if I would just make myself look stupid or what. But I'm glad I did what I did.
My eating issues are something I still struggle with, and they will probably always be there, at least to some degree. But, I like to think that I have gotten better and will continue to get better.
And as for my hair- I live in a day and age where extensions and wigs are readily available. I'm not saying it will ever get to that point, but if it did, I am not above buying fake hair... I actually used to have a good friend whose body rejected her own hair, and she had a couple of wigs that she wore and so they always looked cute and perfect. But. I'm taking pre-natals and I have plenty of long hair left so it shouldn't get to that point, eh?
Today I did nothing. That's a lie. I picked my final high school report card from my school (way to put it off until July, I know) and put a dent in the room-cleaning process. And I made plans for tomorrow.
And I talked to my mother on the phone, which stressed me out significantly. That's some drama I definitely need a break from. I'm not even going to talk on it about here, lest I have an anxiety attack.
Also last night I stayed up extremely late, attempting to watch New Moon. And I quite frankly, couldn't stomach it. I know people love the Twilight Saga but... I've only watched the first movie, and I read the books Twilight and Eclipse. I started reading Breaking Dawn, but about halfway through I decided the plot was laughable and never picked it up again. I gave up on New Moon (the movie) about twenty minutes in, and watched How To Deal instead.
I also started working on this story that's been sitting in my head for a while. It's a love story/coming of age tale, and the protagonist is based on Amy (who else?). Amy is such a fascinating character unto herself so I just decided to copy/paste parts of her personality and appearance onto my main character. What can I say? She's my muse.
Telling you guys it's a love story and that I'm basing my main character on one of my best friends makes me feel like I sound ridiculous, but I really hope that when I start writing, it will turn into more than just that. I have never liked the whole superficial teen romance/cheap chick lit genre very much and the thought of being a part of that kind of makes me cringe.
I have been writing as a hobby since I was young, and while I don't think I'm the next Sarah Dessen or that I'll ever get published anything, I enjoy it. It's not my passion, but it's a nice creative outlet.
I just got a follow-up phone call from my mom. And I feel really sick now. My nerves are just all out of whack.
I won't give you guys tons of backstory like I usually do, but currently my mother is on her way to a shelter for battered women and their children, with three of my younger siblings in tow.
So. Yeah. Life I suppose?
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Why today is awesome: There's cookie dough in my fridge, hollluhh