OKAY PREPARE FOR A SUPER LONG POST, DETAILING THE PAST TWO DAYS, AND LOTS AND LOTS OF ANGST.
So yesterday was Friday, and I did what I always do on Fridays.
I got my dad to take me to the mall to meet up with Amy so I could stay at her house, after which Amy and I went to Starbucks to redeem the free drink card my grandfather gave me. We got a venti double chocolaty chip frappucino, and so begins my weekend of gluttony.
When we entered Amy's cul de sac, we stopped to see Tyler and that was lovely, and then Michael stopped by and I love him and his new car greatly.
Amy and I went inside, watched a few episodes of Supernatural and ate candy corn, Hershey's kisses, chips, greek salad, and mashed potatoes with bacon. Start keeping track.
Around ten thirty Amy's sister, who goes to college in Atlanta showed up with one of her college friends in tow, to visit her home for the weekend. I've actually never met Casey, but she was very nice and lovely and I liked her a lot.
A little while after Casey showed up, Amy and I went to JJ's for a party, as usual. It was absolutely packed this time around, but it was mostly people we didn't know and some of our favorites (Aria, Bryan, David) weren't there, but we had fun making new friends nonetheless. We made a ton of new friends actually. I also experienced a very important "first" (well technically it's a "second" but I don't really count the other time because it was kind of a fail) as a teenager. And it was interesting.
Around one o'clock in the morning Amy started wanting bacon, and JJ informed us that she had some in her freezer... Amy attempted making the bacon herself, but in her mental state at the time, it proved to be too frustrating for her. So I took over, and very calmly made the microwavable frozen bacon for my best friend. As I was thawing the bacon under hot water, some white guy with dreads came over and asked me about it. He thought it was a pretty bangin' idea too. Anyway, the bacon came out hot and crispy and we made even more friends because everyone wanted some.
Cue a somewhat pathetic scene where Amy and I flopped backwards onto a half-inflated air mattress used as a couch with a giant plate of bacon.
Two o'clock in the morning, JJ and Amy and I wanted Steak 'n Shake.
And I must say, it was one of the most magical moments of my life. I don't know why. There was just something about being in the back of JJ's car, middle of the night, good feelings, windows down, driving fast, singing along at the top of our lungs to some old All Time Low song we loved in freshman year that made me feel truly alive.
We got to Steak 'n Shake and I had chicken tenders and fries and ketchup and it was wonderful.
When we got home, Casey and her friend from college were in Amy's hot tub so we stuck our feet in and talked with them for a while, and decided to watch Get Him to the Greek, but Amy and I were so tired from a night of partying that we had to go to sleep. This was around four or five AM.
Then at 9:45 AM the next morning, my phone alarm went off and I forced myself into Amy's shower. Her shampoo and conditioner is awesome. Then we went to an art festival in Winter Park with her mom, and it was lovely. We saw a lot of interesting artwork and people, and we got to eat Italian ices. Afterward, we made a trip to Costco and bought a tray of peppermint bark.
Back at Amy's, we ate about half the peppermint bark while watching MORE Supernatural.
Around six o'clock we got ready and such to go to a 7 o'clock show at The Gate. Amy and I are friends with at least a couple people in most of the bands that were playing. There was Above All Eternity (my friend Ricky), Awaken Great City (our friends Ian, Chris, and Keith), Bring Forth the Attack (our friends Kyle/Vanilla Ice, Bradley, Taylor, Stephen, Ryan, JP), Author Creator (featuring Josh...), and Messengers (I don't actually know anybody in Messengers).
The experience was... unique. The music was good, for hardcore music, and it's so strange to see how much my friends have improved. I don't like their particular genre that much, but I still like to support them.
The crowd was... pretty much an awkward reunion for me. There were plenty of people that I was happy to see, including all of the boys in the bands mentioned above; plus Alison, Chelsea, Michael, Kayla, Ginger!Alison, Heather, and so many others... Plus I met a lot of new people, as well as talked to a few people that I've only ever talked to online. So that was good. But there were plenty of people that I wasn't so happy to see. There were a lot of really obnoxious people from my high school, as well as at least four other people I have personal vendettas against.
On top of that, my friend Taylor informed me that the reason he has gone from my best friend to never answering my calls/texts is because his girlfriend I guess sees me as a threat. Which I can completely understand because I've been on the other side of that, but still. I'd never steal someone else's boyfriend, you know? So that stung, and seeing her just made me uncomfortable.
Oh and Josh greeted me with a forehead poke and a hug. Which I mean, I'm cool with us being on friendly terms and all, but it's too soon for a hug. Could we just start with waves or high fives or something? We can work our way up to hugs, but for me it's too soon, since I still get kind of queasy when I see him.
He also gave me a hand hug and I was unpleasantly reminded of how perfectly our fingers fit together. I kind of want to kill myself for writing that previous sentence, I really do, but I'm being honest here. I'll make up for it by telling you guys that I think his new mullet was a really bad idea.
Oh and also I bumped into Michelle which was really awkward but it forced me into explaining myself and why I have been ignoring her for so long. I let it all out in one long train of word vomit, and I think she kind of understood but it's going to be difficult for me to work towards any sort of friendship again.
The show ended, and almost everyone decided to meet up at Steak 'n Shake.
I don't know if you've ever experienced a group of over thirty teenagers in a Steak 'n Shake after a concert, so I'm really sorry that I have no words to describe it to you with. But I had a steakburger with cheese and fries and ketchup and shared a chocolate milkshake with Amy and it was lovely.
We said goodbye to all our new friends, and Amy brought me home and now I am crying because I miss her and I don't know what to do with myself.